I am here, just overwhelmed

Cleaning for Passover, dealing with sick boy (who thank God is doing much better) and balancing my health has been a lot.

The holiday is here, the kids are all home, DH is working when ever he can and I am really numb. Tomorrow the hope is, getting IV calcium, going to the zoo and making ice cream. I would skip the zoo, but the husband has no desire to go with the four kids on his own, and I am not sure I can blame him. I am still not sure it is a good idea or that I am up for it, but we shall see.

The first day of Pesach was beautiful. The seder was very very nice, even if I was numb. We actually pushed my recliner over to the table so I could sit more comfortably (the dining room chairs are not good for my numbness) and I had some great snuggles with my little ones during the seder.

The food, though a lot of work, has been great. Husband did the shopping from the lists that we made last year after Pesach, based on what we used last year. I never left the house to enter a store, which is really really awesome. I haven't needed calcium IV as much this year, in preparation for the holiday, as I did last year but it seems that some is unavoidable.

All in all, things are B"H going great. I wish I felt better, but we are here, celebrating together, and happy even if I am quite numb.

Coming up for air

I am exhausted. Dealing with a sick child, beeping pulseox alarms and adjusting oxygen levels all night for over a week would have been a lot for anyone.

And now the Pesach crunch starts. The cleaning, shopping, kashering and cooking.

I have rounded up some good help B"H. I finally found people who (mostly) show up. I have a mother and son team here now doing the bedrooms.

Tonight I have a doctor's appointment for myself to refill prescriptions and my husband is taking my son for a haircut and to buy him a new suit since his old suit is too small. I am really tempted to cancel my appointment and sleep, but plugging away and doing what must be done is too important.

Last night I defrosted the freezer. Our Pesach meat order is coming tomorrow IY"H so it needed to be done. The wonder of a non frost free freezer is, once it is defrosted and wiped down it looks like new. It may not be frost free, but it is practically self cleaning.

One day at a time, one project at a time, and on days like today, one hour at a time we get through, do and conquer. If I let the exhaustion get me down and stop pushing and moving to the best of my abilities it piles up and buries me.

Friday we went through the bags of gorgeous hand me down clothing a friend sent our way. As much as the timing wasn't wonderful, right before Shabbos, the clothing was. We were able to put away nice new clothing for each of the girls for Pesach.

I am tired, rambling and not making much sense, so I will end here.