Back to school, back to our regular life, back to reality

My kids have been home for a week and a half. For a week and a half we have been without the morning rush, without uniforms to iron, without food to pack, without homework and without school bags to organize.

This evening, not only did I have Shabbos to clean up from, but all of the back to school prep to do and supervise as well.

I got three sinks of dishes washed and the kitchen to cleaned up. Food is packed and shirts are waiting to be ironed. A bit of laundry is done and I am tingly.

My IV Friday and a day of feeling better are becoming a distant memory. The weeks of stable calcium levels are obvious crashing. I am not stable. Pushing and doing what needs to be done in my house is pushing my body over.

I am numb. My muscles are cramping. I feel like I did Thursday night.

I have a busy week ahead, with my next neck ultrasound and one of my daughters scheduled for dental work. I need to feel better.

My brother in law is getting married IY"H in two weeks and we have family coming in for the wedding. I need my house in order. I need to be feeling well to get it in order. I need to be feeling well to entertain and appreciate everyone.

I can actually see the muscles on one of my fingers spasming right now. It may be interesting to see, but it isn't pleasant to have it be my bodying misbehaving.